I promised myself that I would journal my crazy life from Friday morning till now, but it turns out that I just don't have the patience, as I have a multitude of things to take care of before allowing myself to indulge. Gotta love that crazy little thing called life.

Post promised for later.

Tags: life
Current Mood: busy
Current Music: All I Ask Of You: The Phantom of the Opera (Original Canadien Cast)

It is crazy snowy here today. Truly crazy snowy. We could get between 5 and 10 inches tonight. I'm only OK with that if it results in a delay, a cancellation or no after school activities. Otherwise, I don't really think I'm in the wintry mood anymore.

Although I have to say the thought of hot chocolate on the couch while snow falls outside isn't that bad.

Just got home from longish day. School, dentist, church for a bit, ballet, Kyle's for a bit, ate dinner and now I'm here. Pretty light load for tonight. I need to finish my online sturff, edit my FRQ, finish my position paper, shower and then I'm watching Mississippi Burning for the APUSH paper due Thursday. I'm really only living for the shower and the hot chocolate tonight, lol.

I just want to sleep. I can't wait for Friday, as Friday will be my first day off for this April break. Thank the gods! I need a vacation like crazy. I just need to sleep, and eat, and clean. It will be grand. I'm sure.

Yay for APUSH papers! Blarg. I just need to get through it and then it will be done. Although no matter how much I tell myself that I don't enjoy it any more.

I shall relax and persevere.

Current Music: Simple Joys of Maidenhood: Camelot

I love my Forgotten English calender.

I love Mists of Avalon. Absolutely love it. (It makes me so happy to rekindle romances with those things which I love!) It makes me itch for Beltane.

Exciting news about Beltane, by the way. Te A.M.O. were asked by another girl who goes to school with us if she could join our Beltane celebration. Oh so exciting!

Another thing I absolutely love is Camelot. WHS did it this past weekend and it succeeded at least in helping me to love it all the more, which ultimately led to the rekindling of the love fore Mists of Avalon. Regardless, it's been a wondrous Arthurian legend filled weekend.

I also went to see half of my dear LyCanthrope on Saturday in Charlie Brown and I'm so proud of them. They were certainly protecting the entire production and keeping us members in the audience informed with all of their warning signals. Made me laugh out loud. I truly love you all. I'm hoping very, very soon was can slay together again now that musical season is ending.

The rain is another thing that's making me happy. Makes it easier to pretend I live in Britain.

Premium Stash Green Chai Tea is my favorite. My absolute favorite. It's one of those things that can fix almost any day. True fact.

I suppose I should remove myself from in front of this computer. My night looks like it's going to consist of cleaning up a bit, APUSH, some math problems, an eventual shower, some dinner, then who knows (some sort of time for myself hopefully!)

Where once it never rained till after sundown.
By 8am the morning fog had flown.
Don't let it be forgot
That once there was a spot,
For one brief shining moment
That was known as Camelot.

Tags: arthurian legend, lycanthrope, tea, wicca
Current Music: Camelot

Let's discuss how I did NOT have rehearsal this morning? Yup. That's right. How flippin awesome is that? Pretty flippin awesome.

Ergo, my night last night consisted of getting home around 5:30 and napping till 10:00. Eating dinner, watching Sex && City and going back to bed till 11:00 this morning. I feel so amazing. It's grand.

I got to wake up this morning, drink hot beverage and leisurely check my e-mail, etc. Then I get to have a big and late breakfast with my Mommy. *le sigh*

Today? My plans. None. Also, oh so grand. Truly, madly, deeply grand.
Tomorrow? My plans. None! Wootness!

I love actually having time to recover from this oh so inconvenient sickness. Tis grandness.

Maybe I'll actually be able to shave my legs and do all those other things I've previously not had enough time for, lol.

Everyone needs to come see me in Little Women!
Friday, March 20 and Saturday, March 21
7:30 at South Jefferson Central School

It's going to be great =)

Current Mood: relaxed
Current Music: Shuffled Songs on iPod

After the week I've had this Sunday is the best thing that could have possibly happened to me. Accomplishment galore!

-Woke up this morning and actually had breakfast
-Got ready and dragged myself to church
-Cleaned bedroom
-Organized musical costumes
-Made two lockets for the musical
-Accomplished math, french, music history and APUSH work
-Had a seemingly never ending cup of my favorite tea while doing so
-Translated part of my voice homework
-Researched "Faust"
-Successfully did an hours worth of yoga/pilates
-FINALLY trimmed and filed my blessed nails
-Took a nice long shower
-Had a real dinner and a reasonable hour
-Able to check online stuff
-And it's only 8:42

Things which I hope to still get done and see it actually happening:

-Running lines
-Watching "Nights in Rodanthe" with my mom
-Some more APUSH
-Some quality reading time with Raymond Buckland
-Some quality reading time with "Little Women"
-Actually doing my air exercise before bed? There's a thought!

I'll finish my other voice homework tomorrow because it's neither a night for singing or theory at this point.

Praise the gods for accomplishment.

*crosses fingers* Here comes the week.

Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: Thistle and Shamrock: On The Radio

I love snow days. Truly, madly, deeply. Honestly, this is such a welcome surprise and makes me oh so happy. I get to spend this wondrously snowy day at home with my kitties. I don't even know what to do first, but I'm so excited! Woot!

Things are dreadfully busy. Now that vacation is over my main focus is the musical and running, running, running of lines. Gotta love it! That and getting the costumes done, voice lessons, ballet class, school, and all the other things I love to do!

I love my fandoms. They bring me such comfort. Just thought I'd share.

Hope all is well with the rest of you. Let me know as I fail at LJ friendship *skulks away*

Current Mood: relaxed
Current Music: Various Artists: Radio

Alright. I need to have a little discussion with myself.

I am without a doubt obsessed with the Twilight series. It eats me. Seriously. In all my free time over vacation I re-read/read the entire series. And now it's all I can think about. I was devastated when I finished Breaking Dawn and now all I desire to do is go back and read them all again. I want to fall into them and not come out.

I also saw the movie over break, tried to go back to see it again, but it was out of theaters. I got the soundtrack for Christmas and it's hardly left my CD player. I have issues and I love every minute of it.

I have no desire to do my Internet Documents or my Position Paper or study for my Chemistry test. Although, I suppose I could just put off making up the test till Wednesday, write my Position Paper during periods 1-5 and then do my Internet Documents during my 6th period lunch. Mhmm. Twilight surfing is taking complete priority.

Of course I have other things I need to do and if I want a chance to fall asleep and dream of Edward I should probably log off and be somewhat responsible (but not before I read the first chapter of Midnight Sun posted on Stephanie Meyer's website of course...if it wants to work with me).

I wish tonight when I go to bed that while sleeping my dreams would eat Chemistry and I would fall into Edward's arms. I would be totally ok with that.

Goodnight, I suppose.

Current Music: Tremble For My Beloved: Collective Soul

I'm trying desperately to write this Position Paper, so that tomorrow I could not have to worry about it, or stay up until all hours of the night finishing it. However, I've been distracted.

I had the toughest time starting. I procrastinated like crazy, eating marshmallows, working on lines for Othello, anything so I didn't have to start writing, or to occupy me until I could think of the next best thing to occupy my time. And what better to waste time then FanFiction? Duh!

I logged on to Ashwinder and eventually Pureblood and found a few delicious reads. One of them was absolutely SO delicious, but wonderfully beautiful at the same time. It made me giggle, run from the computer, dart out the back door and run as fast as I could out into the middle of the field. I spun around in circles, dropped to the ground, rolled around in the soft grass and then proceeded to dart back up and start dancing. I haven't been to a ballet class in months, and dancing in my long flowy skirt without shoes, in the middle of this field made me happy then I have ever been dancing before.

I then proceeded to wander aimlessly around the field and the woods and the gardens. I picked a handful of wildflowers from the edge of the creek and their smell intoxicated me. Upon coming back inside I placed these in a vase, cracked the office window for I believe the first time ever and now sit, listening to Phantom, in complete bliss, not feeling so intimidated by this paper.

It's amazing how beautiful the grass, the flowers, the sound of the wind and the way fresh air smells. She's absolutely wondrous sometimes, wouldn't you agree? *le sigh*

Wish me luck with trying to prove that socio-economic reasons are to blame for the witchcraft hysteria in Salem. *scoff* Everyone knows that ignorance and not enough wine is to blame. I wonder what Ms. Freeland would think of that position?

Tags: ap, beauty, flowers, fresh air, nature
Current Mood: wondrous
Current Music: The Phantom of the Opera

Oh my goodness, monstrously long day yesterday. School all day, out to Clayton for voice lesson, back home for Lyric meeting and then out to dinner with Taylor, Jared and Broseph. Got home quite late and went to bed immediately. Got up this morning, went to school and ended up coming home early because I did not feel good at all. So here I am starting my long weekend early. I'm hoping that tonight I can get lots and lots of cleaning done before the crew for the Revue comes over tomorrow for that meeting.

And on a side note I am obnoxiously sick of fighting with Taylor. End Scene.

Rawr. I need FanFiction and hot chocolate, but I don't really have either. Makes me sad. Quite, quite sad. Blarg.

Current Mood: stoked
Current Music: Do You Know What It's Like?: Zanna, Don't!

Once upon a time Ashley missed the bus this morning. It was like the opening for Four Weddings and a Funeral (Bugger! Fuck! Bugger!). I showered and got ready in like 15 minutes and mi madre drove me to school. And school wasn't that bad either. Actually it was quite amazing. I got almost all of my work done which is REALLY exciting. Then I had a cavity filled, blarg. Came home and was able to get even more work done before dance class when suddenly:

Realization hit me tonight. Whilst I was in dance class, with the sun streaming through the windows and my hair down to my back, trailing behind me, as I danced out horribly modern movements to "Comfortably Numb." I realized that I no longer needed to be afraid of life. I have woken up every morning afraid to go to school or to whatever activity I had or even just to leave my house, but tonight while I was dancing I realized that I didn't have a reason to be afraid, nor did I want to be anymore. And once I got home, took a nice long shower, relaxed in front of my computer and Jared and I had a great conversation:

psychotenor: That made me realize... I have dreams. And I need to pursue them.
ViciousSoprano: You know I had a realization similar to that tonight.
psychotenor: Really?
ViciousSoprano: I realized that I didn't need to be afraid of life.
psychotenor: True, yes.
psychotenor: We need to go do it Ashley.
ViciousSoprano: If I want to change and to live, then I have to do it.
psychotenor: Lets go get the best out of life.
psychotenor: We'll go together... until one of us just makes it.
psychotenor: And then we'll be set for life.
psychotenor: To be happy for the rest of our freakin existences.
ViciousSoprano: We can do it, Jared.
ViciousSoprano: It'll be amazing, love!
psychotenor: We really can.
psychotenor: We NEED to. No more games. No more pretending.
psychotenor: We just be us and go get in shows and such
psychotenor: and then work on cruise ships... in shows
psychotenor: and then be in movies. And we will take over the world.,
ViciousSoprano: World domination.
ViciousSoprano: Score.
ViciousSoprano: I think that's the best way to go.
psychotenor: True, yes.


J'aime beaucoup! I believe I'm off to study bio, eat dinner and sleeeeep! Woot! Goodnight, loves =)

Tags: change, life, realization
Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: Taylor's Voice On The Other End Of The Phone